“Dead Friends”

 

c. 2025 Rod Ice

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(11-25)

 

Dead friends cannot make amends

It is a feat, impossible

So, when they come a-calling

It is better to greet the eventual

I know a lot about this chase

Far better than the catch

But when the clutter of life abounds

I want to strike a match

 

Dead friends carry no hope of change

Personalities set in stone

Now that they have gone away

I sit here, lost and alone

If I would ruminate about

The adventures that we knew

That energy will peter out

Like a pair of leather shoes

 

Dead friends live in a world of wonder

A place both dark and cold

Separate from the sunlight

With a stink of must and mold

But now and then their names are called

And the sound is sweet to hear

That is when I see again

These souls that disappeared

 

Dead friends make me tremble

As I recall their worth

I celebrate them annually

Upon their day of birth

Yet even that remembering

Falls too short of the mark

I yearn to touch and hear again

To tease fate for a lark

 

Dead friends cause a shake of the head

When considering their absence

The void they leave behind

Upsets my inner balance

Off kilter, I will stumble

And stammer out a curse

My muse has no gifts to bring

Except an empty purse

 

Dead friends may remain intact

Long after they have gone

In photographs and painted portraits

In glimpses of the dawn

But still, I want to choose another

A different path to tread

A stronger dose in retrospect

Of what lingers in my head

 

Dead friends do not call to chat

Though I might imagine a ring

I sit still by the telephone

And yearn for what time will bring

From the far side of a mortal veil

They cannot leap the divide

Though I hear their whispers

Before the receding tide

 

Dead friends keep their value

Despite the closing of a grave

In defiance of their passing

A spark of self is saved

What they have contributed

Is returned, a hundred-fold

And I’ll carry that inheritance

To the point of growing old

“Boxes”

 

c. 2025 Rod Ice

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(11-25)

 

 

Boxes a younger self packed, in 1983

When it seemed quite amusing to be homeless and free

Now difficult to behold, from a vantage point so advanced

A product of choice and chance

Flung far down the road

Stuck in a trailer abode

Slipped into a time warp envelope, and sent to the stars

This remembrance of battle scars

And how they were earned

How these lessons were learned

Each fold of cardboard conceals a prize

That brings a tear of yesterday into my eyes

I would rather run from this sight

Much more content to sidestep the daylight

Yet as a gift, this delivery was bestowed

In the bed of a pickup truck, hauling its load

I might have declined to answer the door

A polite refusal of this everyman award

But with a twist of the doorknob latch

I netted a big fish, a fine finned catch

Batting its broad tail in my face

With the effect of a vision yielded by scholarly grace

This image in the looking glass, undeniably mine

Though reconstituted by the progress of time

I barely recognize the profile

An assembling of trinkets, saved from the rockpile

This must have been an impulsive act

To preserve such meaningless artifacts

Now, on the floor in my room, they are set

Blocking access to closets and cabinets

A distraction I did not require

Automotive spares, and a bicycle tire

A school desk from my third-grade class

A dimple mug, made of common, crystal glass

A trumpet in its case, ready to play

White shoes from a marching band, in western PA

Tape decks and bottlenecks abound

A set of hi-fi speakers, bereft of sound

Books and magazines

A faded pair of blue jeans

A quilt made in tribute, for an age long surrendered

From a county in the country, an anonymous burg

A lamp with no shade

A church bulletin, a mimeograph page

All of these useless things, and more

From a rented storage space, behind a rollup door

They are naggingly in the way

A roadblock gone astray

I sit outside in the cold exterior

Pondering my crowded sphere

Grumbling softly at the younger fellow who cast this lot

A boxed bounty of forget-me-nots

Fallen far into future days

Where guilt could not judge his reckless play

That simple sweep under the rug

Left a trail of breadcrumbs and bedbugs

Long and lasting into an eternity, undiscovered

An echo of events, now uncovered

With each strip of tape pierced and parted

Comes another round of reflection, on the departed

Whatever has been lost is found

Whatever goes around comes around

So, with a prayer for courage

I settle my rage

Silently, I sit, sort, and sulk

Each cube revealing its secrets, in bulk

Trash and transgressions

Before the setting sun

A load of consequences, left in the wake

Of a kid at the curb, burdened by his mistakes

Trailer Park Takeover, Chapter 5: Meeting

 

c. 2025 Rod Ice

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(11-25)

 

 

Evergreen Estates had never been a peaceful neighborhood for residents, the on-site manager, or local members of law enforcement. Instead, it had remained a focal point for citizen unrest, mayhem, and gossip. Wild theories about the outside world found fertile ground to germinate and grow, on its potholed streets. Pervasive suspicions about nearly everything were common. Underlying themes of paranoia and mistrust accompanied every discussion of literal events. When combined with a general lack of higher education, and a downward mobility in financial terms, this potpourri of damnation festered openly. But because the community had been situated away from any regional population center, and built inside a perimeter of unoccupied, wooded lots, it remained untouched by the natural evolution of more metropolitan environs. County leaders were never pleased to admit that the village of mobile homes still existed in their district. Yet after many efforts over the years, they remained powerless to erase it from their landscape. It was, in the imagery of a 1950s science-fiction movie, a beast that would not die.

 

At least, that is how I often thought of the junkyard oasis where my exile had continued for 20 years, and more.

 

With agitation becoming more intense over their acquisition by the Proletariat Property Co-op, Dana Alvarez decided to hold a meeting at the maintenance garage, for those who lived in the rural development. She had been in charge for a relatively short time, but felt empowered after being held over to continue acting as their supervisor, despite the change of ownership. Her fiery, Latina personality was evident, when calling everyone to order. She used a length of PVC drain pipe as her gavel.

 

A furious racket echoed, as she struck the concrete-block walls to get everyone’s attention. I did my best to avoid the spotlight, by remaining just outside of the access door.

 

“Ayyyyyyy! You are a loco bunch today! I wanted to get things settled down, but you gonna make that hard for me, right? Look, I don’t need no toro mierda from this crowd. I wanna pass out some papers, they are from the new company in control. Shut up and read them, okay?”

 

Aimes Hefti, a self-appointed leader of the militia contingent, was unimpressed by her boldness. He wore military attire and carried a sidearm and baton, despite never having officially served in the regular armed forces.

 

“WHAT THE FUGG, CHICA? Y’ALL ARE NOTHIN’ TO US, JUST ANOTHER BITCH ON THE PARK PAYROLL! I DON’T NEED YER PROPAGANDA. I ALREADY HEARD ABOUT THE COMMUNIST TAKEOVER! THESE TRAITORS CAN KISS MY RED, WHITE, AND BLUE ASS!”

 

Linn Speck, who had been leader of a failed residential association, stood up without asking to be recognized. He had dressed in a polo shirt and khaki trousers. His overfed belly strained at a pair of canvas suspenders.

 

“Yeah, I agree with our commander! We’ve already gotten the scoop on this new bunch. What kind of freaks bought this development, anyway? Hippie kids from Cleveland State? LGBT protesters? Maybe BLM or Antifa members? This is an outrage! We were better off being owned directly by the bank! What was Wells Fargo thinking?”

 

Dana paused for a moment, then stroked her long, black mane.

 

“I’m gonna say it straight out, don’t be an idiota! Listen to me carefully, when I talk. This place had no buyers lining up. Nobody wanted it, even at a sale price. The California dudes couldn’t give it away. So, they took an alternative offer. These guys are different, yeah that’s true. But their credit rating was solid. That’s all the gente del dinero care about. The big bucks! Now, I don’t get how it works really, but their plan is on the level. It’s like a credit union for teachers and students, and working people, you know? Trabajadores who get their hands dirty, people like you and me, who have regular jobs and empty pockets. People who want to own homes for their familias...”

 

Darby Stronelli could barely see from her spot by one of the bay doors. But she hopped up and down until being noticed. Her Carhartt jacket reeked of smoke from bonfires fueled with pallet wood and used motor oil.

 

“All I know is Garter Haines told me this new group is Chinese or Russian, or North Korean, or something like that! He got out of here a long time ago! And he did! Now I wish I had done the same thing! I don’t trust them, and I don’t trust you!”

 

Grumbling and grousing filled the stale air. Once again, Dana had to pound her pipe on the wall to restore a sense of decorum to the event.

 

“Don’t be crazy! Who you gonna believe, some old imbécil, or me?”

 

The cramped workspace became heated, unruly, and loud. But as chaos took hold, there was a commotion outside. My presence had been noticed by the mob. So, I decided to enter the room, thumping along on a pair of disability canes. My pace was slow and measured. I had the shocking appearance of a homeless hermit, shaggy and unwashed, and clad in thrift-store apparel long out of date. A statement of individuality that was unwelcome to some, but amusing to others. Only my Realtree, camouflage hoodie seemed current in style. That fit the neighborhood ethic.

 

“I get it, everybody wants to give Ms. Alvarez the business about this changeover. But I’d like to point out that she is just a spokesperson. A representative to answer phone calls and process rent checks. She didn’t pick this option. Or make any other decisions. This shithole, to put it bluntly, has always been looked down upon by those in the mainstream. Not to mention cops and journalists, elected officials, and even Pastor Forester up at our Church of the Lord Jesus in Heaven! We don’t rate with much of anyone. This is a hideout for those who are down on their luck and strapped for funds. You might say, for those who are long on bad luck and short on hope. This park reminds me of something Charles Bukowski might have written about. Not that you’d ever have heard of him, or bothered reading anything so off the wall. Anyway, from what I can tell, this co-op is a novel idea. Not that I give a rip about their slant on politics, or society, or anything. I just know that they were willing to gamble on this community. Which your orange hero just did, meeting with New York City Mayor Mamdani, in the Oval Office. If it’s like all the other situations, this’ll pass before too long, anyway. Nothing lasts here in the pines. Then we get to do it all over again...”

 

Aimes frowned, wrinkled his stubby nose, and spat on the dirty floor.

 

“SHOVE IT UP YER ASS, LINK! Y’ALL ARE NOTHIN’ BUT A WORTHLESS, GAWDAMN BUM! GO BACK HOME AND DRINK YER HILLBILLY HOOCH! I HOPE YA FREEZE ON THAT PORCH!”

 

I grinned at his insults. They made me feel empowered.

 

“Thanks for the good words, neighbor. See you in hell...”

 

Manager Dana gestured with the PVC pipe. At last, she had run out of patience.

 

“That’s it people! Reunion levantada! I’ll see you all on the first of next month with your checks! This meeting is adjourned! Now, get out of here!”

“Throat”

 

c. 2025 Rod Ice

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(11-25)

 

It sticks in my throat

That joy for the few comes in a glimmer of daylight

While more fortunate sons and daughters stay up all night

Chortling over the embrace of luck or happenstance

A product of choice and chance

Which comes wrapped in gold foil

From laborers who till the soil

Offering up a prayer of gratitude when rain falls

When gray clouds soak the sky

And children wipe the mist from their eyes

I might have joined that chorus of creditors

If not for being of lowly birth

Nestled in my crib, close to the earth

Anonymous, in swaddling clothes

When I hear the roll called, and realize

That my name is not included

For a VIP entry

With the gentlest, gilded gentry

It makes me certain of my intended path

A line drawn in ink, on a yellowed, Sohio road map

Dare I veer astray?

That sin might cause a stir

A reason for wise words to be deferred

Until better days amend

I used to pick apart the tales of Roman conquest

Thinking hard about their centuries of success

And my own lack of the same

But somewhere, late in the eve

I found that a loose brick in the basement wall

Sufficed, sufficiently

That escape trick evoked a slip of laughter

A footstep into the great hereafter

Taken, toe-first

Nose into the musty space

Peering through the imaginary gale storm, a-brewing

Wondering what I was doing

When pulling the ripcord on my poetic, skydiver jump

Booted off the plane

That tumble out of the cargo hold

Into the vacuum-bottle of a mortal soul

Fraught with failings and foibles

Arranged in strands of knitted, synthetic yarn

Causing me to turn like a corkscrew, on the way down

Flailing and failing

To appear confident before those waiting on the ground

I might have done better

To remain a seminal seed

Bred for my potential

A take on the eventual

The capricious yield of a gambler’s toss, chips pushed in

Cards to the chest

The outline of a shadow drawn in hues with no names

Vest buttoned to the chin

A pocket square folded once, and again

Which of these descriptions is the most astute?

A bloodborne pathogen, or a birthday suit?

I have lost count by that point in this exercise

And so, for relief, I close my eyes

Just for a moment, so as not to lose my mental check

A guitar pick rested on the cusp of a sunset

Low over the horizon’s edge

A crow’s talon, clinging to the ledge

Wings fluttering wide and strong

Feathers gleam with the grandeur of a genetic sire

I could not hope to rise

In a flight through those thundering skies

I am merely a serf at the moat

Guilt and innocence, carried in on the same boat

I must admit

That it sticks in my throat

Trailer Park Takeover, Chapter 4: Rhubie

 

c. 2025 Rod Ice

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(11-25)

 

 

Evergreen Estates was obsessed with new ownership for our park, as the Thanksgiving holiday was drawing near. This progression from a vibrant display of fall colors, to the impending arrival of winter, was moving at a pace too rapid for my liking. Yet the seasonal change was something known well to park residents. The transition of our distant caretakers, an event that happened rather anonymously and in a world of which we were barely a part, seemed less important. So, I did not dwell on it for any length of time. Having our property held by a co-op of benevolent, socially-conscious investors resonated with charity. I reckoned that their stewardship would be kinder in nature than the hard, fiscal attitude of previous owners. But this opinion was not shared by anyone else on my street.

 

As always, I was an outcast. Even among those already ostracized from regular society.

 

This role of being a loner and contrarian was very familiar. One that I embraced with great relish. Because I stayed drunk and oblivious, throughout most of my waking hours, the verdict of others meant very little. I did not care about their opinions. More specifically, because of my prevailing inebriation, I tended not to notice insults and verbal jabs lodged in my direction. When they did register, I always responded with a raised, middle finger. And perhaps, a rejoinder offered in loud, four-letter bursts.

 

Yet with the winding-down of cyclical meteorology, and a chilling in the atmosphere, I found myself waylaid by the passing of a younger sister, Rhubie. It was a dreadful happening that seemed to come out of nowhere. Blazingly hot and hard, and relentless in force. She received a diagnosis early in the year, of health issues that were undetected by regular examinations. A surprise to her, the doctors involved, and our family. As each condition was treated, some new wrinkle appeared. Then, pancreatic cancer was added to this ugly cyclone of circumstances.

 

Fearing her demise, I sat with her at a local skilled-care facility for three hours, and reminisced about our shared childhood. We had tackled many family woes together. Being the oldest, I found that she always turned to me in times of need. Though she herself was the hub of our brood. The axis upon which everything else turned. Our chat was emotional, but pleasant. Much like many that we had enjoyed over the years. I did not remark on the fact that she had become pale and sluggish. Her eyes and cheeks were sunken. Yet for that brief instant, she sparkled with energy and life. I was able to compartmentalize my unspoken concerns, and simply enjoy the experience. Without surrendering too much of a visceral reaction.

 

On the way back to Evergreen Estates, I passed a memorial field, not far from my trailer community. The sight of this sprawling, local cemetery did not resonate as I steered toward home. Though subconsciously, I must have been mindful of those friends who had already been laid to rest at the site. Only a few days elapsed before I received news that my beloved sibling had been transferred to a hospital in downtown Cleveland.

 

She died just after three o’clock on a Saturday morning.

 

I might have observed that this exit from our bloodline was one that left me in a state of numb indifference to maintaining my daily routine. But the truth was more complex. I had made a quantum leap beyond the guardrails of a polite, human existence, many years before. So, perhaps in individual terms, I found it easier to cope. Others in my lineage were wrecked mentally and physically. They struggled to maintain proper contact with each other. They lost focus, and their zest for going forward, toward future plans and goals. Everything had been scattered, like pieces on a gameboard. There was no certainty that tomorrow could or would bring a sense of relief.

 

But for me, little changed. I stayed sloshed, disconnected, and safe in my pit of darkness.

 

Eventually though, the noise of bickering residents invaded my metaphorical bubble. Reports about the land transaction between Wells Fargo, and the Proletariat Property Co-op, had been shared by media sources along Lake Erie. WCPN 90.3 FM provided a thorough analysis of the transfer, that I streamed through my cell phone. Though I doubted that anyone else in the park was also listening, those details soon became woven into a mantra of conservative rebellion and outrage. One that propelled members of my isolated community into action.

 

“Reports from our correspondents with National Public Radio indicate that a new form of financial innovation has been planted right here, in the northeastern region of Ohio... in a place that one might suspect would never willingly accept such a progressive and grassroots effort to grow. After many company changes over the past several years, a Geauga County enclave known for crumbling conditions, chaotic management, and surging militia memberships, has now become the largest holding of a group dedicated to citizen empowerment, social justice, and equity. The co-op is one started originally in 1969, by students at Cornell University. Their initiative at first roiled the world of high finance. With a period of uncertainty and gloom marking their early history. But today, the PPC offers working-class participants a chance to acquire homes and living spaces through a unique platform of shared responsibilities... every member of the group is technically equal to all of the others. Though in practice, there is some specialization with regard to duties in the collective. The laborite ethic of ‘from each according to his ability, to each according to his needs’ is central to their outlook. With inflationary pressures, credit tightening, and wage stagnation, more interest is being given to novel ideas of this kind. In a nation where the bottom 50% of inhabitants hold only 2.6 percent of the wealth, it is easy to see causative factors for this shift to more populist methods for gaining a foothold in the marketplace...”

 

Down the street, I could hear that Linn Speck, an active parishioner at our local Church of the Lord Jesus in Heaven, was in his driveway with a bullhorn. The grating sound of his voice turned my stomach. Despite its digestive tissues already being scalded with copious amounts of whiskey and beer. His call to action was for a meeting to be held at the maintenance garage, on Sunday after services on our township square.

 

“TRUMP! TRUMP! TRUMP! TRUMP! MAKE THIS PARK EVERGREEN, AGAIN! MAKE IT GREAT! MAKE IT GREAT!”

 

I pumped my right fist in the air, as a mock salute to his zeal. Then, opened my glass jug, and took a blissful dive into Tennessee oblivion.

 

 

Trailer Park Takeover, Chapter 3: Chatter

 

c. 2025 Rod Ice

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(11-25)

 

 

Confession: I don’t have a clock of any sort in the front bedroom. Because, in my current state of disability and retirement, there is no need to be anywhere on time.

 

To paraphrase Elvis Costello, “Everything (now) means less than zero...”

 

At the beginning of Monday morning, I awakened around half past six o’clock. There was a misty wash of gray in my front window, that seemed to beckon with the rainy start of a new day. Something I met eagerly, despite the seasonal bluster, because I had crashed early after a long Sunday of pro football competition, and disappointment. Our hometown franchise, located in Cleveland, had once again provided a lackluster show on the field. With quarterback chaos and failure on public display. This was a particularly unwelcome result, as the rival club from Pittsburgh had already notched a win for themselves. It meant that sports traitors in the neighborhood would be boasting, bragging, and beating their chests. And that I had no ability to escape their treason.

 

Fortunately, I had gotten drunk enough that this familiar yield of woe barely registered, mentally. And I would dive back into my liquor reserves, before any of these bleating beasts approached my refuge on the porch, outside.

 

First, however, I needed to clear the lingering fog from my head. This process would make it possible to get inebriated once more, later in the afternoon. With a full crescendo from sobriety to drunkenness obliterating my dark mood. I hated being conscious for too long. That state of uninhibited awareness allowed me to behold the ruin of my mobile-home neighborhood, and its population, with no protection. I did not want to be naked in that sense, for too long.

 

My television was already tuned to WOIO, Channel 19. The team of Vida Nuñez and Dartell Jackson sat behind a news desk painted orange and brown. Both hosts on the broadcast were dressed in appropriate attire for the hour. They were smart and sharp, and stylish. But not too outlandish for the robot cameras to follow. As I poured a first round of black brew into my mug, a report about future plans for our local NFL franchise echoed in the living room. But the segue from a previous story turned my stomach.

 

I heard the female anchor relating details of a meeting with Cleveland Mayor Justin Bibb.

 

“We were told today that the city has a sweeping plan in place for reorganizing the metropolitan school district. A task made necessary by tight budget restrictions. As parents are well aware, funding has been an issue in Ohio for many years. Taxes are unpopular, and spending has been constrained by a lack of resources. There aren’t many options left to elected officials. So, the mayor says, he will close down facilities in need of repair, and consolidate classes. He admits that these choices are not easy to make. But, he says, they are necessary...”

 

Jackson showed little emotion when taking the handoff from his co-host. Though he attempted to breezily change from one subject to the next.

 

“In other developments relating to our area, Mayor Bibb has dropped his opposition to the Browns move out of their stadium on Lake Erie. A new sports complex in Brookpark will offer premium services not seen before in this part of the state. Owners Jimmy and Dee Haslam are grateful for the support of lawmakers that will ease the financial burden of this relocation. The billionaire duo believe that having an investment made by our government makes lots of sense in the long term. It is the kind of partnership seen all across this country, with fans wondering about the cost of PSL licenses, and tickets, in years to come...”

 

I slammed my stoneware cup on the kitchen counter. Coffee spilled over my T-shirt, and on the floor. The noise shook my prefab walls.

 

“Ugh! Screw those kids in classrooms with no heat and no hope, right? Just keep handing out favors to a guy and his wife, who’ve already got deep pockets! To hell with the rest of us, our problems don’t count...”

 

A stray cat hunting for rodents on the porch outside, went running for cover. I could see its frenzied retreat through the window over my sink.

 

As I sat down at one end of my couch, juggling a cell phone and toast, there was a notification chirp from the wireless device. Someone had posted on the Evergreen Estates Facebook group. This registered as a line of text in my personal notifications. But before I could scroll through the list, another annoying squawk indicated that my neighbor to the east had also lodged a word-missile in this direction.

 

“LINK, HEY ARE YA AWAKE OVER THERE, OLD DUDE? GO OUT TO YER RAMP, LINN SPECK IS IN HIS YARD, RUNNIN’ OFF AT THE MOUTH! AND HE IS! I GUESS THAT NOTICE GOT HIM ALL JACKED UP. HE SAYS ITS SO-CIAL-ISM COMIN’ TA CALL, I DON’T EVEN KNOW WHAT THAT IS, REALLY. BUT EFF IT, HE’S KINDA STRANGE ANYWAY. FAT AND SMELLY, AND BALD, BUT AT LEAST HE BRINGS ME BUD LIGHT WHEN I’M OUT AT THE PARTY BARN!”

 

Still feeling slightly groggy, I staggered toward my front door with both canes. Upon entering the square space of my inset porch, I could hear him shouting and cursing. In the background, his wife was pleading for calm.

 

Haki was still in her nightgown. She seemed to be desperate and confused.

 

“Honey, people can hear you up the street! Come back inside, we don’t want to start a riot this early in the morning!”

 

Her spouse was barely dressed. He wore a stretched-out pair of gray sweatpants, and a sleeveless hoodie. His overfed belly was half-exposed. Both garments were soaked with perspiration, despite the lingering cold.

 

“LOOK, THIS DAMNED NOTICE SAYS WE HAVE TO JOIN SOME KIND OF PEOPLE’S COLLECTIVE TO STAY IN THE PARK. WHAT THE HECK IS THAT NONSENSE? LIKE JOINING THE COMMUNIST PARTY IN RUSSIA OR CHINA TO KEEP FROM TAKING A BULLET? I GUESS, THANKS TO ONE OF THEIR FIRING SQUARDS? I DON’T GET IT! THIS AIN’T NEW YORK CITY, OR SEATTLE! THIS IS GOD’S COUNTRY HERE, I THOUGHT! YOU KNOW, MAGA COUNTRY! HOLY COW, WHAT IS HAPPENING TO AMERICA? LIBTARDS DON’T RUN THIS COMMUNITY!”

 

I took a seat on my wooden bench, and kept drinking coffee. It was still too early to connect with the trailer-park stream of consciousness. I needed to clear my head, and palate. Then, perhaps, some sense of reason would steady my nerves.

 

Otherwise, it would be time to start drinking, again.

Trailer Park Takeover, Chapter 2: Information

 

c. 2025 Rod Ice

All rights reserved

(11-25)

 

 

The election of Zohran Mamdani as mayor of New York City did not seem to have any specific relevance to my home state of Ohio, or the isolated community where I lived in Geauga County. But after searching online for clues about Proletariat Property Co-op, LLC, and discovering that there were few details available anywhere, I turned to my distant contact, Yarl Trite. A friend I had known decades ago, when living the life of a younger, more impulsive and naïve individual. A fledgling writer on the streets of a Finger Lakes city, south of Syracuse.

 

Yarl was older, yet still retained a level of curiosity about technical innovations that was laudable. He had the personal style of a rocker, with longish hair and leather attire, but held the perfectionist vibe of a computer nerd in his heart. He had outlived most of my other friends from that region, despite battling afflictions that were common to men in their 70s. I liked the persistence of his forward-looking attitude. And relied on him when stumped by riddles of a perplexing sort.

 

PPC barely seemed to exist, at least from my vantage point in the heartland of America. But upon reconnecting with my cohort from the Empire State, I soon realized that having skills as a professional nerd could make an enormous difference when snooping in cyberspace. He rang up my cellular number, late on a Friday evening. When I had already dived into a pool of cold brew and Tennessee whiskey. Something that brought out my true personality in full force. A dangerous condition to share with anyone not already familiar with my habits.

 

“Link! How are you doing, old man? By now, you must be drunk as usual!”

 

I had to clear my throat, which was burning from the high-proof wash of liquor.

 

“Old man? C’mon now Yarr, screw that nonsense! I was in diapers when you were hitting record stores around town. I’m still an overgrown kid, okay? Sure, I might look like a shaggy caveman, but it’s just a trick of the light. You’ve got the endurance trophy, I think...”

 

He laughed long and hard, before tapping noisily on his computer keyboard. The clicking pecked at my ear with sharp, short repetitions. Much like the point of a chicken’s beak, foraging through kernels of corn.

 

“Kid, my ass! You’re more of a tired, cranky workhorse. Wandering in the pasture, maybe, but not ready to be processed by a pet food cannery! Anyway, I had a look around at some of the trolling websites that we use at work. It helps track down results for customers that get lost on the information superhighway. You said that the trailer park has been taken over by a new owner, right? Not a bank or holding company, necessarily, but an entity from my area, apparently...”

 

I nodded while sipping my fiery beverage.

 

“That’s it. The name sounds unfamiliar. When I went hunting, it didn’t come up as any sort of legitimate, financial concern. There’s got to be an interesting backstory, we ain’t been told much of anything here in my park.”

 

Yarl ceased the incessant tapping, and began to read from his oversized monitor.

 

“What I’ve got here is a registration of the original group, a collection of student investors. They were formed in the hippie era, as an alternative to the mainstream idea of owning land and buildings. Did you never hear the quote, ‘From each according to his ability, to each according to his needs?’ That’s in their mission statement...”

 

I stammered while reflecting on the quote, mentally. It evoked distant memories, long left dormant and forgotten.

 

“What’s that, Karl Marx? From his Critique of the Gotha Programme?”

 

My techie chum whistled with affirmation.

 

“That’s it, they had a perspective on ownership that was separate from the usual banking crowd. The cooperative is run as a way to make everyone equal in assets and responsibilities. No one legally holds any property as an individual, it’s all collectively owned. That opened the door for lots of young insurgents who couldn’t afford to get into the housing market originally. Now, that plan has been revived by friends of the mayor in NYC...”

 

I had to catch my breath. His revelation made me intellectually dizzy.

 

“Who’s backing that co-op though? Don’t they need a guarantor of some kind?”

 

Yarl sighed heavily, over my lack of comprehension. As if beholding a pupil attempting to learn in his classroom.

 

“Link, use your gawdamm brain! New York State underwrites the co-op! That’s the best assurance anyone here can get! With shadow participants in foreign countries that wish to be involved...”

 

I was still puzzled about the acquisition.

 

“So, they let this communal bunch buy out whoever owned the property, before? Really? That’s one hell of a change, especially for anything in my part of the country...”

 

He snorted at my comment. Then, dropped into a monotone of professorial explanation.

 

“Look man, I don’t figure your trailer has much value on its own. That whole park can’t be worth a lot, compared to other developments in Ohio. It just stands to reason. You’ve been complaining about changing owners and company managers for years. I’ll bet that Buckeye rathole has been sold a dozen times over, since you’ve lived there. What does that indicate? Nobody wants it now, there’s no potential for turning a big profit. Certainly not with all the violations of EPA guidelines, safety concerns, and residential rights...”

 

My face was burning. I felt grateful that fall temperatures had arrived. On the porch, there was enough seclusion to keep me safe and invisible, while using my phone.

 

“If nobody is technically an owner, then what does that mean for me? I’m the poor schlub that has to live here, Yarr! What’s the upside for me?”

 

My adviser hummed to himself while scrolling. Then, made a sales pitch for the idea of shared debt and duties, as a business strategy.

 

“It’s good for you in the end, because nobody gets sued. Nobody gets evicted unless you leave the co-op. Nobody gets bullied by lawyers or the police. Do you understand? From what I see here, you have to be expelled by a vote of your peers. It works for regular inhabitants on your street, and for those who oversee the asset portfolio, at offices in the city. Each member is equal in status, top to bottom. I’d say it’s a great deal for everyone...”

 

I had become too inebriated to argue the point, philosophically. But it did not matter. He had finished my lesson in real estate finance. We were done bantering for the evening.

Geneva Go-Round: “Pharmacy Pause”

 

c. 2025 Rod Ice

All rights reserved

(11-25)

 

 

Being disabled has meant that my daily routine consists of fewer chores as a matter of course. This streamlining of tasks is something rooted in necessity, but also spurred by a realignment of life priorities that inevitably comes with racking up more years in service. In the manner of an old vehicle, my body has become balky at times. Uncooperative, and resistant to being in motion. When needed, I am still able to get around and accomplish goals that are of a top-line priority. Yet otherwise, I am content with my role as a single component in the stream-of-consciousness. I do not need praise or accolades from others. To be sentient and alive is enough. Sometimes however, I need to make short trips around my rural area. Generally, these are for the purpose of gathering groceries, visiting doctors, or procuring medicines. I rarely travel simply for pleasure, in modern times. Additionally, I try to stay close to my home base, always. I live in a neighborhood which is west of Route 534, and south of Geneva.

 

Recently, I had to visit the pharmacy at Giant Eagle, located on South Broadway Avenue. I have stayed with this small depot for many years, because of the caring approach to waiting on customers that they provide. And, their expert command of medicinal information. With seasonal concerns in mind, and a list from my family physician on one of her appointment cards, I showed up at the counter, despite having no prescriptions waiting. Something rare enough that it made me feel slightly embarrassed for adding to the rush of consumer traffic.

 

I had no difficulty in explaining my desire to get vaccinations that were needed. My only challenge was with filling out paperwork on a clipboard, which required that I sneak down an aisle, to a kiosk of reading glasses. There, I was able to temporarily employ a stylish set of frames and lenses that brought the printed matter into focus. I took comfort from the fact that no one seemed to pay attention to my clandestine act of borrowing. After a brief interlude, I reckoned that my scribbled entries were legible enough to be readable. So, I returned the document to a side window in the department, and got back in line.

 

I was riding in an Amigo shopper cart, an electric workhorse that made getting around the supermarket possible, despite normally walking with two canes. While lingering next to a display of hanging apparel, with local sports themes displayed proudly, I listened to the music service that provided soothing, background noise. Familiar songs from the 70s, 80s, and 90s played on an endless loop. This wi-fi stream of entertainment put me at ease. I was not anxious about being poked in both arms, for a good cause. I trusted in the staff to help protect the measure of good health with which I had been blessed.

 

But as I waited patiently, a tune written by Robert Smith of English band, ‘The Cure’ began to echo from speakers in the ceiling. I had heard this track many times over the years, and held no particular connection to its lyrics or intended meaning. But suddenly, my thoughts drifted to the fact that my sister had passed away from pancreatic cancer, late in the month of October. Literally, only a short span before my visit. My lips began to tremble, and I felt tears pooling in both eyes. This reaction seemed completely idiopathic, not caused willfully, or by a specific link between the song and my lost sibling.

 

I had to grip the handles of my battery-powered mule, in an attempt to steady myself. I did not want this odd moment of grief to be exposed publicly. In particular, in front of the pharmacy manager, who I counted as a friend.

 

“Whenever I’m alone with you

You make me feel like I am home again

Whenever I’m alone with you

You make me feel like I am whole again

 

Whenever I’m alone with you

You make me feel like I am young again

Whenever I’m alone with you

You make me feel like I am fun again

 

However far away

I will always love you

However long I stay

I will always love you

Whatever words I say

I will always love you

I will always love you...”

 

I was completely unprepared for this emotional outburst. It came swiftly and without any warning. I had not even been thinking of that sad event when navigating the store, and interacting with familiar members of the crew. But there it was, a connection between memories of old, and an unspoken hint of tragedy.

 

My sister had been relatively healthy for over 60 years, or so it seemed to the rest of our brood. She was simple and elegant in her own philosophy. Someone who endured challenges without complaints or dramatic protestations. She was steadfast in practicing a Christian faith, and took her marriage vows as a serious promise made before God. She did not drink alcohol, smoke tobacco or marijuana, and kept her language resoundingly clean. Her stewardship of the family, two brothers, three children, and a loving grandson, provided an underpinning for everything we enjoyed. She was notable for cooking and baking treats for neighbors, friends, and fellow worshipers at her church. In all, someone who aced the fine art of living with skill, and love for all. I could not match that level of kindness or conviction.

 

Her demise put me in a funk because, admittedly, I could not claim to follow such a noble path. My own journey had been plagued with failed marriages, career shifts, homelessness, bankruptcy, and bad decisions. I did not keep quiet when things went wrong. This unpredictable manner made some people in my orbit observe that I could be like the literary team of ‘Jekyll and Hyde.’ Only in retirement and solitude had I reached a point of maturity that better served my personal goals.

 

My genetic counterpart had the courage and wisdom of our father, who was a member of the clergy. Something she used frequently to herd all of us along as her benefactors. It caused me to celebrate having her as a hub for our group. And, to mourn when she was taken too soon, by her devastating affliction.

 

Somehow, I managed to dry my eyes, and compartmentalize what I felt in my gut, while getting processed by the Giant Eagle pharmacy. I hid any evidence of being rattled. Yet afterward, as I sat in my car outside, the unique phrasing and melody of that Cure composition remained in the air. I heard it all the way back home, as if it still played on the dashboard radio.

 

For a creative writer, only one release exists for such taxing moments. The act of translating them into print, for future review. To that end, I offer this confession with humility, and gratitude.

 

Yes, my sister, I will always love you.

 

 

 

 

 

“Blackboard Sky”

 

c. 2025 Rod Ice

All rights reserved

(11-25)

 

A crescent ghost on a blackboard sky

Peering through the window, lighting my bed

Streaming an idea into closed eyes, and a covered head

As I am unplugged and unaware

What a surprise to be roused

In this room where I am safely housed

Among the pines

Narrow lots arranged at an earlier time

Now remain in a testament to the design

Of fortune seekers who oddly established this rural outpost

Far from the crowded walks, east of Cleveland

In a spot unloved and unknown

Their concept thrived on a basic need

To acquire a home, affordably

Thus, the blue-collar masses from Lake Erie arrived

In wrinkled work clothes

Booted and belted, in denim and reeking of Wild Irish Rose

Their preferences were notably meek

Having existed on meager sums

Pennies in their pockets, these artful alums

Of a hard-knocks institution

A concrete curriculum of working-class absolution

In their stead, I tossed and turned

Groaning in the dim glow of this familiar satellite

This orb, hued in gray and white

Slim and slight, overhead

This was the beginning, at an unreasonable hour

It made me sit up and shake my head

This epiphany in my bed

If I had been more bold

I might have scribbled down the verse that hung in sight

At that fruitful moment of the overnight

Yet I cursed being awake

And sat in a chair at the end of our couch

Rubbing my eyes

At half past one o’clock

Still groggy, and unconcerned with the tease

Of creative energies

That were surging through the unconscious haze

I might have begun my day

Early, and impulsively quick

But the irony was heavy and thick

So much that after a cool sip of water, I returned to my first cause

To be knocked out, loaded

Slumbering, like a summertime Santa Claus

Surfing waves of oblivion

With my purpose, no more

I began to sniffle and snore

Blindly counting hours with no timepiece for an aid

On my mattress, I lay

Stretched out and twisting at my joints, until fatigue took hold

Bare feet, and barely covered

Strangely comfortable in the cold

This routine rattled my circadian rhythm

Leaving me lost in the vacuum of naught

Without even the tempered ticking of a clock

For a metronome

To keep my heartbeat steady and measured

I drifted and dozed throughout the span

Of this adventure, a silent, solitary man

Until mercy came with the sunrise

Which stiffened a resolve to again open my eyes

And there, waiting at the nightstand, so close at hand

Was the nugget of nicety

Given from an anonymous muse

As I had wandered on a cosmic cruise

Mentally, metaphorically

Headed to the point of discovery

The crossroads of a pen and tablet

Sitting at my desk

And ready

Trailer Park Takeover, Chapter 1: Notification

c. 2025 Rod Ice

All rights reserved

(11-25)

 

 

Living alone in an environment such as Evergreen Estates can be challenging. A condition that works against staying on balance, mentally. But I have found that being busy, at my desk, refrigerator, or liquor cabinet, keeps me centered and on course. I do not have to justify this strategy to anyone. Least of all, to myself.

 

It works, and that is all that matters.

 

But sometimes, an intervention from outside forces can divert me from this trusted path toward inner peace. A recent example of the phenomenon came as a notice from the park manager was left in my storm door. It had been drafted in haste, I suspected, and spoke cryptically about a new owner taking over at our development. While the number of corporate entities and bankers who technically possessed the property had been many, most residents simply learned to live with our plight. Having a tangible center of operations did not matter much. Especially when those distant, anonymous masters were located at a business nexus on the west coast. So long as checks for lot rent were processed, little else changed over time. Every company seemed to have a similar outlook on providing maintenance and supervision. In other words, each of these financial supervisors ignored conditions on the ground, in favor of collecting income and avoiding lawsuits. Only the most basic remedies to our woes were ever offered. Happily, we learned to endure and thrive, in spite of this obvious neglect.

 

There was little else we could do, as individuals caught in a loop of despair and gloom.

 

The bulletin placed in between sections of my front entryway did not explain a great deal about who had assumed the mantle of stewardship for our trailer oasis. Yet it sparked a lively debate among neighbors and friends on the street. Some immediately called for hiring a legal representative. Though none of us had the funds to secure that kind of advocacy. In personal terms, I poured a round of Jack Daniel’s in my favorite drinking glass, and sat outside to read and ponder what had been announced.

 

“Attention residents – this community has been formally acquired by a new group of shareholders in New York City, the Proletariat Property Co-op, LLC. In the coming days, you will receive more information about this investor group, and their novel practices in the mobile-home industry. But be assured that the high standards to which you have become accustomed at Evergreen Estates will be fully maintained. For the moment, your on-site contact will continue to be Dana Alvarez, and questions regarding this change may be directed to her at the office. We thank you for your patience in this matter...”

 

My cell phone began to vibrate in a hoodie pocket, almost immediately. First to reach out in protest was Darby Stronelli, a spiky-haired busybody who lived on my eastern flank. Predictably, she had strong opinions on the notice, despite knowing nothing about the new group taking charge.

 

“HEY LINK, DID YA READ THIS SHIT IN THE PAPER? HERE WE GO AGAIN! I BEEN TRYIN' TO TELL PEOPLE, OHIO LAW AIN’T CALIFORNIA LAW! AND I HAVE! BUT NOBODY LISTENS. SCREW ‘EM IF THEY DON’T CARE! THEY GOT ME EFFED UP! THEY CAN’T GET AWAY WITH THIS! AM I RIGHT OR WHAT, BUDDY?”

 

I wanted to ignore her virtual tantrum. But knew that if I remained silent for too long, she would simply walk across the empty space between my longbox and hers, to repeat every word, face-to-face.

 

“Umm, did you read the flier completely? This mysterious co-op is in New York City...”

 

My cohort across the side yard must have been squawking like an irritated hen. The tone of her messaging rattled my nerves, even without being conveyed in an audio blast.

 

“TO HELL WITH THAT, I DON’T GIVE A DAMN WHERE THEY COME FROM! AND I DON’T! THEY CAN’T JUST PULL A BUYOUT ON OUR PARK WITHOUT GIVING NOTICE! IT’S NINETY DAYS, NINETY DAYS IN OHIO! THIS IS OHIO, DAMMIT! O-HI-O! NOT CAL-I-FOR-NIA!”

 

I savored the burn of my Tennessee whiskey before sending a reply.

 

“Where did you get that info? I never heard of such a law...”

 

Darby sent a string of angry emojis, and a clenched fist.

 

“YA OUGHTA BE SMART LIKE ME, DUDE! I PAY ATTENTION TO THIS SHIT! WE’RE IN O-HI-O NOT CALIFORNIA. NOT CAL-I-FOR-NIA! NOT NEWWWW YORK. NOT ANYWHERE BUT RIGHT HERE! THIS IS WHERE WE ARE, MAN! YA HEAR ME?”

 

I nodded quietly, and wiped my mouth which was still tingling with high-proof residue.

 

“I figure they’ve already worked out the details. Those legal eggheads get paid for pushing their paperwork through the courts. It’s what they do for a career...”

 

She was livid at reading my simplistic explanation.

 

“COURTS? WHAT THE HELL, WHO SAID ANYTHING ABOUT THE COURTS, WE DON’T EVEN GOT A LAWYER, BUDDY!”

 

I sighed heavily, and took another swig of the potent, brown distillation.

 

“Darb, it isn’t like passing out Bud Light to hustle up some free wood for your projects. There’s got to be a blessing from a judge somewhere. The last institution was bankrupt, or so they claimed to Wells Fargo. Who was that, Western Golden Financial Partners? I can’t even recall actually, there have been so many. Maybe I have them out of order...”

 

My fellow resident was in an ugly mood. I feared that she might toss one of her empty bottles toward my living room window.

 

“QUIT BEING AN ASSHOLE, OLD FART! YA ALWAYS GOTTA BE A DICK ABOUT EVERYTHING! I HATE IT WHEN YOU SIT OVER THERE AND GET DRUNK BY YOURSELF! IT MAKES YER ASS GO CRAZY!”

 

I wanted to relate that being inebriated regularly kept me from burning down my trailer, and leaving the park in a fit of righteous indignation. And that it generally kept other inhabitants at a safe distance. But I restrained this rowdy impulse. Instead, I stroked her ego with a bit of diplomatic flair.

 

“You know plenty of people around this place. Let them bend your ears. See what they think about this revelation. You’ve got a good sense of what goes on in this dump. Meanwhile, I’ll contact my friend Yarl the computer nerd. He has a talent for looking up details in cyberspace. I’ll bet he can figure out what this new gang of money-grubbers is likely to do...”

 

Darby was silent for a moment. Then she posted a middle finger, and a laughing face.

 

“DUMBASS! I HARDLY KNOW ANYBODY HERE, MAYBE TWO OR THREE THAT COME OVER TO MY PARTY BARN FOR FREE BEER AND DORITOS. THAT’S IT, BRUH! THAT’S IT!”

 

I should have allowed our interaction to terminate in silence. Yet something made me respond with a final line of text.

 

“C’mon woman, you know at least a dozen residents just on this street, alone. You ought to be running this property, yourself. I see your profile on social media, every day. You are always in somebody else’s business...”

 

My unhinged counterpart was outraged at this candid assessment. I should have held my tongue.

 

“WHAT THE HECK, MANNNN? YOU’RE A BUTTHEAD, LINK! A GAWDAMM FREAKING BUTTHEAD! KISS MY ASSSSSS! KISS IT TWO TIMES! KISS IT!”

 

The device screen turned blank after her final outburst. I was embarrassed, but grateful.

 

Now, I could drink in peace.